My nightmares and anxiety often switch to ambition for everything I think I'm going to accomplish in 2009. I'm already working on my resolutions list (although I don't ever resolve to change anything… it's usually just a set of goals). See - I'll be turning 29 next year. For whatever reason, I'm convinced I need to accomplish lots of things before I turn the big 3-0… as if I will cease to exist as soon as 2010 rolls around.
One of my goals is to run a 10k. I've officially run 5 5k races (one of my 101 in 1001 list items) and at this point, I feel it's time to challenge myself further. I think if I can run a 10k sometime early next year, I'll feel a little better about the triathlon. And if I am successful with the triathlon (in that I don't wish for the sweet relief of death), then I may try my hand at a half marathon. HALF. I'm not crazy enough to run a full marathon. I'm pretty sure my knees would fall off.
Why am I getting so nutty about physically challenging myself? I think it's because I'm slacking in every other arena of my life: work, school, hobbies and friends. I think I'm subconsciously punishing myself for being a bad employee, bad student, bad hobbyist and bad friend. I think I'm also just deflecting my attention towards something other than everything I just mentioned. I wish I could apply this mentality to school!
Aanywho - because I still have yet to get through all of the photos from Scotland, Juli's wedding AND Kristin's wedding, I’m going to post this one measly photo from Kristin's wedding. Jeremy took it with our Nikon point&shoot (hence the poor quality) but I love it. And I've been obsessively checking Kristin's photographer's blog for updates. He's killing me.
Any tips to get me focused on the things I need to focus on?
7 comments:
The goal of a friend on my dodgeball is to run five marathons before she turns 30 in Dec. She'll do it after the NYC one next month. So like, get on it. I think a good Forest Gump cross country run is in your future. :-)
As a friend of a person who has gotten so involved in her marathoning that she's ignored me for almost a year now, I would say you should make an attempt to contact at least one friend a day to get you back on track.
one thing i try to do is if i'm thinking about how i feel guilty about an email or calling someone or blogging, i try to just take care of it instead of wasting 10 minutes thinking that i'm feeling bad about it. i find that once i sink the 10 minutes into acting instead of thinking, i either get engrossed in the project, call, email and take care of it and feel better. and i often think...why didn't I just sit down and do it earlier?
but i was just thinkng of blogging about the same thing, so take my advice with a grain of salt. :)
Maybe you're being a little too hard on yourself - try and find the passion in you that fired you up for the things you feel you are lacking right now.I know that always helps me...
Yes you have gotten a bit obsessed with working out! I think it's awesome though. And I can't really help you with the lacking in other areas of life area - I'm sucking in all areas of life right now.
i know you just came back from scotland, but maybe you and the mr. could do a little road trip somewhere to a quiet b&b or something and just relax together...w/out any obligations (or technology). that might help you re-focus :) i'm looking into doing that for myself, too.
No I'm sorry. I'm so bad at getting focused when I need to be. Maybe we should all hibernate for winter instead.
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