I know some people snack when they're bored and I think that has a lot to do with it. I also haven't been sleeping well and I think I've been snacking to keep me awake. Ugh. I hate this! I just ate a half package of Sour Patch Kids Watermelons (the greatest candy on Earth), a Berger cookie (a delicious and very very bad for you treat) as well as a bajillion other things. And don't even get me started on the smorgesbord of crap I ate last night at dinner!
I left the restaurant feeling like Violet on Willy Wonka.
What's worse is that I have lost a lot of the motivation I've had for the last few YEARS to work out. I definitely still force myself to go but I have no energy. Yesterday was the first time in my fitness life (which has only been about 7 years) that I've quit a gym class before it was over. I felt like such a failure! I know it's lame to beat myself up over a gym class but quitting along with this energy zap and my constant eating has only justified me feeling like complete and utter crap.
Where has my energy gone? Why have I been eating so crappily lately? Why can't I stop snacking?
And don't say that I'm pregnant. Blogosphere - I don't want to have to hurt anyone. I'm not preggers unless I'm one of the women that belong on that Discovery Health special, "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant". And I'm not joking - there was really a special on Discovery Health titled that and it featured women who gave birth not knowing they were even pregnant. One woman actually thought she had to poop and gave birth to her son in a toilet. I'm not even kidding! Look it up! I didn't know if I should have been horrified or amused. I was just in shock.
Help me get my motivation back. Help me get back on track with my normal healthy diet. Help me!
Any tips on you can offer me, blogosphere?
I think Sunday will be the first night I try to cook a decent dinner. Maybe that's all I need to get back on track. I need to make the effort to prepare food again.
This weekend is going to be jam packed with lots of stuff. We're seeing "Wanted" tonight with Kristin and Jackson. I've got Dragonboat practice at the butt crack of dawn tomorrow (and yeah - this zap in energy is so not going to help me make this team) and we're second shooting with Maria & Drew. Afterwards we'll be celebrating Courtney's big 3-0. I've got to fit a nap in there somewhere. I also have to fit in getting a new bra. My washing machine ate my bra. I didn't know it was that hungry. But I digress… Sunday is someone's bridal shower but she isn't supposed to know about it. She totally does. Want to know why? Her MOH didn't indicate that the shower was a surprise on anyone's invitation. Nice, huh?
I hope I get to sleep soundly somewhere in this jam packed weekend. What's everyone else up to?
